Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts

Wednesday, 23 September 2015

Escapism and Escape

Neil Gaiman, in a lecture quoted in the Guardian, discuses how the term 'escapism' is 'bandied about as if its a bad thing' as if its a 'cheap opiate'. He considers that it is instead the ability, when 'trapped in an impossible situation' to find a 'temoprary escape', that 'opens a door, shows the sunlight outside'. That 'during your escape' that the experience will give you 'knowledge about the world and your predicament, give you weapons, give you armour: real things you can take back into your prison. Skills and knowledge and tools you can use to escape for real.'

That was how I found myself in Secret Cinema's Star Wars finale, holding hands with my own Obi Wan Kenobi, running down the centre of hundreds of people following Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia and a Wookie in the final scene. 

And since then I haven't looked back, except to reflect on what I learned from the experience of 'temporary escape' for my longer term, 'escape for real'.

Wednesday, 22 July 2015

Revisiting

The Ponzo Effect (1913)
The weekend of my Father's 70th Birthday celebration we ended up on a family trip with the younger contingent, to Fota Island a wildlife park. I remember going with my parents and daughter when she was younger and vaguely remember going with my parents when I was a child. 

I had that feeling of nostalgia expanding and contracting with my memory. It was bigger and smaller than I remembered it, partially because of my bad memory and partially because it had expanded and developed as a park. I was planning on going again the following week as part of a work trip and wondered if then it would get smaller, as most places do when you revisit them, not just because you are not a small child anymore and the world is so big but because knowledge brings the world in closer, makes it more familiar.

As Erich Kästner puts it: 
It is always the same. Whether you are walking or going by train, the way always seems shorter the second time than the first. (And that is true of distances that are not to be measured in miles and yards.)

Maybe its also a metaphor for reflective practice.
 
Kästner, E. (2002) Emil and the Three Twins, Random House

Thursday, 18 June 2015

On Reflection: Functions of Supervision

Kadushin and Harkness (2002) discuss the 'complementary' nature of administration, education and support' and how they are 'necessary if the ultimate objective of supervision is to be achieved' (p.20). Also discussed is an 'overlap' between each function but how each function is 'differnt in terms of problems and goals' (Ibid).


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Monday, 15 June 2015

On Reflection: The Process of Reason

Reason, according to the Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary can be defined as follows:

  • A cause, explanation or justification for an action or event
  • Good or obvious cause to do something
  • A premise or an argument in support of a belief, especially a minor premise when given after a conclusion.
  • The power of the mind to think, understand and form judgements logically.  

Reason is very much at the heart of reflection and the process of reflective practice :

Recognise or Recall experience - focus or pay attention during or after
Explore Experience feelings and understanding
Assess the level of understanding and lack of understanding
State the central theme or the gut feeling of the experience
Open up to alternatives, a different perspective, empathise, stand in someone else's shoes
Now what? What do you do with it - what can be learned and how is it applied? What conclusions have you come to? What is the next action? (based on Kolb Learning Cycle, 1975)

Recognise/Recall: In the experience I recall standing at the gate with four colleagues, after 20+ children had left the centre. A man stopped his bike outside and read a notice nearby saying 'God is Love' and asks in an accusatory tone, 'Ah but does God love Bob?' and points to himself, the aforementioned Bob. I recognised this was an experience I needed to pay attention to in it and after.

Explore Experience: I felt put on the spot, in front of colleagues. I felt his attack and frustration with life erupting in the words 'does God love Bob?' I was worried that if I didn't say something that it would put someone else on the spot and that if I said the wrong thing it would escalate.

Assess: I didn't know what was wrong with Bob and why he felt that he hadn't got a fair deal or did not feel valued, but I did know his manner was showing these feelings and wanting to be heard.

State: The central theme was that where Bob should get unconditional positive regard, he wasn't and was either seeking it elsewhere or railing against the forces which made it so. My gut feeling told me he was feeling undervalued and unloved.

Open up: I imagined what its like to feel like that and what would make me feel better. Someone listening, humour and feeling cared about..and unconditional positive regard.

Now What? So on reflection when this stranger stopped on his bike and asked:

'Ah but does God love Bob?'

I answered with a smile:

'Everybody loves Bob!'

And Bob smiled with delight, gave an appreciative chuckle and got on his bike to the sound of conspiratorial laughter and calls and waves goodbye.

And then I once more start the process after the event has ended and recall the feelings of pleasure and sense of achievement, having as the corny saying goes, 'turned a frown upside down' and continue the rest of the REASON process all over again, having reflected in action,  I then reflect on action (Schon, 1983).

Read More on Reflective Practice: On Supervision: Professional Supervision

Kolb, D.A. & Fry, R. (1975) Towards an Applied Theory of Experiential Learning in Cooper, C.L. (Ed) Theories of Group Processes, John Wiley & Sons
Kolb D. A. (1984). Experiential Learning: Experience as the Source of Learning and Development, New Jersey, Prentice-Hall
Schon, D.A. (1983) The Reflective Practitioner,  New York,  Basic Books

Friday, 12 June 2015

On Reflection: Professional Supervision

Attending a workshop in professional supervision today I was reminded of why I write this blog as part of my reflective practice and the need we all have to reflect in and on action as Schon (1983) outlines below:

‘Reflection in action …as the experience is happening…
Reflection on action is done later and entails looking at why certain actions were taken…’


Kolb’s Learning Cycle or ‘circle of experience’ (1975) shows how this reflection works:


When it comes to reflection in a professional capacity there are many and varied ways to learn. I provide 1:1 line-management supervision and non-line-management supervision and I learn as much in the interactions the supervisees. I learn from reflection whether it is filling in an evaluation form or in discussion in group evaluations after sessions. I learn from every conversation I have ,as well as every thought process before, during and after every action, in my individual reflection in and on action.

Whether using  a Learning Diary or a blog such as this, I use writing to explore feelings and experiences to come to new understandings. My reflective practice is a  journey, as Senge (1990) would put it,  living in a ‘continual learning mode’ where people never ’arrive’. 

In the process of professional supervision the two people in the relationship are pilgrims together on a pilgrimage, learning together.


‘The pilgrim has the ability (and joy) of assisting others in their reflection process people who in another situation could be doing that for us. Pilgrimage implies seeing someone as a fellow traveler, where discussion and reflection take place as par of the over all journey. In supervisory terms, this means acknowledging the value of what both the supervisee and supervisor bring to the supervisory journey’ (Green 2002)

The pilgrimage we are on to greater understanding is made easier by the company of fellow travellers. They can provide direction. They can help remove barriers on the path. They can motivate or encourage when the journey seems long. And sometimes they only need to be there to make us realise that we are not alone. That we are all pilgrims travelling together on the pilgrimage of life-long-learning.


Green, D. (2002) The Process of Supervision, The Development of Supervision as an Educational Process, Unit 1: Supervision Studies Handbook, YMCA George Williams College
Kolb, D.A. & Fry, R. (1975) Towards an Applied Theory of Experiential Learning in Cooper, C.L. (Ed) Theories of Group Processes, John Wiley & Sons
Kolb D. A. (1984). Experiential Learning: Experience as the Source of Learning and Development, New Jersey, Prentice-Hall
Schon, D.A. (1983) The Reflective Practitioner,  New York,  Basic Books
Senge, P. M. (1990) The Fifth Discipline: The Art & Practice of The Learning Organization, New York, Doubleday

Thursday, 19 February 2015

Reflection on Reading

Having just finished The Year of Reading Dangerously by Andy Miller, and how 50 Books changed his life as a person and as a writer, I considered the books I have read recently and their influence on me. If as Stephen King says, in reading books we find the tools for writing, then I should be a better writer the more I read.
Page Opened at Random in To The Lighthouse by Virginia Woolf
With this in mind below is a list of what I have been reading (and why) since September when I started this blog. As Miller and Stephen King contend, this should influence my life and what I write. This can most obviously be seen in this post, and anywhere I have mentioned the books below, but I wonder how much of what I've written has been influenced in subtle ways I don't realise.

52 Quotes List of Books:

1.  Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier. This was a Book Club book. I'd joined the book group to keep in touch with a friend and to push myself into reading books I wouldn't read otherwise. However this was a book I'd read years ago and I'd also seen the 1940's film with Laurence Olivier and Joan Fontaine. Even so, I'd completely forgotten the plot (a gift of mine which means I can enjoy again and again) and only remembered the haunting atmosphere created in both book and film. It has one of my favourite openings of all time, which encompasses the whole trial of what is to come in the rest of the book.  'Last night I dreamt I went to Manderley again' hints at a momentous time in our heroines life but it is only if we read on we find out why.

2.  Make Good Art by Neil Gaiman. This was a lecture Gaiman gave to students at Philadelphia's University of the Arts in 2012. This book is innovatively illustrated by the graphic artist Chip Kidd, with a play on words and typography throughout. In it he tells us: 'Go and make interesting mistakes, make amazing mistakes, make glorious and fantastic mistakes. Break rules. Leave the world more interesting for your being here.' More on Gaiman and mistakes in 10 Reasons We Should Make Mistakes. A thoroughly inspiring speech and book for anyone trying to 'make good art', or just anyone.

3. Stephen Fry, Selection of Anton Chekov's Short Stories  Recommended by L, a friend of mine, I have tried to read Chekov before and never quite grasped the tone until listening to Stephen Fry. It was a pleasure and delight and I laughed at the brilliantly painted scenes and dialogue which came to life with Fry's voice and vitality.

4. Life after Life by Kate Atkinson. This was another Book Club book, with an interesting premise of following the lifes and deaths of Ursula, and the many variations of lives lived. It reminded me of Schrödinger’s Cat, and how we the readers get to look inside the box. It also prompted a friend to recommend The First 15 Lives of Harry August by Claire North, which I read later and comment on below.

5. & 6. Out of the Ashes and Adolphus Tips by Michael Murporgo, were books we had in our centre library and ones which I thought short enough not to put off a young person into her first foray into personal reading. When I suggested, as part of her alternative curriculum, that we read a book, M asked me why. Yesterday,  having read a number of books, M wanted to know when we were reading the next, she was looking forward to it!

7. Regeneration by Pat Barker. This book was chosen as the book to read, by the library community book group, for around the time of Remembrance Day. The book was memorable, as an exploration of the mental battles soldiers and doctors fought in and out of the trenches of the first world war. The psychological effects of warfare are treated in a hospital, using methods from counselling to electroshock therapy, all in an effort to get the men back in the trenches. It reminded me of Catch 22 by Joseph Heller. Catch-22 told the story of how those who were proven to be insane were relieved of duty. The idea was that you would have to be mad to constantly fly into almost certain death, over and over again, but if you asked to be relieved of that duty, that would prove you sane, so hence the term 'catch-22' - there was no getting out of it. Another story about the insanity of war.

8. The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas by John Boyne. This was another book in our young person's book club. I chose it because, like the other two books, it was first person narrative, which M was able to identify with. I had to cover the book so that the cover picture would not give away the plot and so that M's reading wouldn't be ruined by spoilers because people would be familiar with the name of the book. For some time M just called the book, the yellow book, because of its yellow cover. Usually I am not so cautious but I had seen Of Mice and Men spoiled for M at school and didn't want to take any chances.  This was the first book M could not put down.

9. Maggot Moon by Sally Gardner. I chose this book as research for my main character in my novel. I needed to figure out his age and the appropriate first person narration for that age. Moon boy was far too young which I was glad of as I had been afraid my character seemed young, but was reassured. The story itself had a great worldview, reminding me of a children's version of 1984 by George Orwell, and had a great version of moon-landing propaganda. This was also the beginning of my training in listening to an audio version of a book. I'd not quite got the hang of it before and I wanted to try again.

10. Wonder by  RJ Palacio. This was another research book for my novel, but again the narrator, aged ten was too young. What was especially interesting though was that we didn't just get the experience of the central character August and what it was like to negotiate a new school life with a facial disfigurement but we also got that story narrated from the points of view of the other people in his life, giving the novel layers, multiple perspectives and a depth of understanding of life which is normally impossible from just the one point of view. What also added texture to the audio narration was the different voices for the different characters. I was finally getting the hang of audio books.

11. On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft by Stephen King. This I read for obvious reasons. And I read it and didn't listen to it. Mainly because I bought it last year in the New York City Library (I even got it stamped!) and had bought it for the motivation and inspiration I knew I needed for my next stage as a writer.  Yesterday's Fear was a post where I describe some inspiration I got from the book. However, the best lesson I got from reading the book was that there is time to write. If someone could write between the wash cycles of an industrial laundromat I certainly can find time to write.

12. 1984 by George Orwell. I read this years ago in my final years at school, probably even in 1984. I wanted to revisit it, after reading Maggot Moon and also as research for the alternative worldview of my novel, to check what I was missing. I decided this time to listen to it, trying to train myself to be able to listen/read at times when I usually wouldn't be able to pick up a book, like walking to work, shopping, cleaning. I was amazed by how much time I could reclaim for reading. A brilliant revelation. Room 101: We Are Our Greatest Fear is a post based on what I read, but it really only barely scratched the surface of what I learned every time I've read it. Still what resonates with me is how words hold power, how they mould thought and control the masses in a sort of mind control of our own making.

13. & 14. & 15. Divergent, Insurgent, and Allegiant  the trilogy by Veronica Roth, was again reading for YA research. I'd seen Divergent, the film and liked the main character Tris and the way the world was split into factions, different groups promoting the skills and characteristics of five virtues: selflessness, peacefulness, bravery, honesty and intelligence. This was again a first person narrative and from the perspective of a 16 year old Tris (a similar age to my main character) who has to chose her path in life and finds it to be divergent. I listened to all three books, read by Emma Galvin as Tris and was able to move the speed of narration from 2.5 of the previous book to 3. I was reading now all the time and getting through books in no time.

16. The Children Act written by Ian Mc Ewan, read by Lindsay Duncan. A brilliant book, brilliantly read by Lindsay Duncan (who years ago, when my partner briefly dipped his toe in the shallow and unprofitable end of script-writing, played a part in a short film he wrote, called Late at the Office). The Children Act is something I'm familiar with from a legal perspective as I work with children and young people and much of what McEwan had to say really hit home with me. The Cement Garden and On Chesil Beach came to mind at times reading this book, not least because they are other great stories from McEwan but they spark moral dilemmas and raise questions about what it means to be a man, woman or child trying to find our ways in the world in our intricate networks of people, situations and feelings, and the sometimes slow, sometimed fast, domino fall of consequence.

17. Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer.  I began listening to this and loving Oskar as a character, laughing out loud, as he described his encounter with his jujitsu teacher and was really excited to get to know this character. Slowly but surely, the book sucked the life and joy out of Oskar and made him into a caricature, nothing like a real 9 year old. I watched the film to see if I'd missed something, but the film made the Oskar character even more unlikeable. I was disappointed, he was not believable, the other characters all seemed more realistic than Oscar, so I lost faith in his truth and in the end only believed them.

18. The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August by Claire North. This book had some interesting concepts and time-travel themes. It set the scene and set out the rules at the start, and went headlong into a battery of lives and life and world events and then faded a bit in the middle, with a barrage of more of the same and constant digressions but picked up again at the end. It seemed to come together with the plot of the Cronos Club, which without would have been just a string of lives and deaths. But it did come to a satisfactory ending and was worth sticking with.


I wonder what my reading says about me. Or more importantly I wonder what my writing says about my reading. I have certainly learned more than I've read. In the end I can't say how much I have been influenced by what I've read, as my very thinking, language and writing of it will be shaped in ways I cannot separate from my thinking, language and writing. When I reflect on my reflection its no longer the same relection. Its like holding a mirror and seeing the opposite. Its not me, just me looking at me.